Subtitle: Do I Matter? An Adoptee’s Perspective through Her Relationships

I’ll never forget that momentous day at age fifteen when I discovered that I was adopted. It felt as if someone had cut my heart into a million pieces. I no longer celebrated my life; I simply braved it. Yet somehow, I knew that I would embark on a journey of healing. A journey to accept myself. Or maybe even find the Divine in me?

The seven crucial  emotions below were the hallmarks of my twenty-nine year journey to gradually loving myself:  Abandonment, Denial, Anger, Depression, Forgiveness, Acceptance of Self and Celebration of Self.

Celebrating self is two-fold:  First you must learn and trust to accept self. My truth—my bliss—lay in my heart. When I was ready to accept ME, I found some semblance of peace, which lead me on an unfolding path to love and happiness.

Second, practice forgiveness and daily gratitude. The road to celebration of self is found, first, through forgiveness and second, awareness. But my missing link was that I never sufficiently forgave and embraced gratitude.

My healing began after I was able to wholeheartedly forgive my mother. Robert Muller said, “To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.”

Miracles surround us daily for profit. Oscar Wilde said, “The aim of life is self-development. To realize one’s nature perfectly—that is what each of us is here for.”

Recently, I biked through unruffled marshlands of the Baylands Nature Preserve near my home. I stopped to take in a cluster of trees and shrubs swaying gingerly under a cool summer breeze. A late setting sun wrapped the branches in a sparkling rainbow ribbon. I stood still and gazed, enchanted. Nature’s splendor embraced me. I expressed gratitude for this gift presented to me—one of Nature’s many miracles.

I’ve dedicated these blog posts to sharing with you my journey of transformation from betrayal and loss to forgiveness and love. Up until that moment, The question was always: Who/what defines my truth? I relied heavily upon my mantra: Every child deserves to know the truth. But my truth is based solely upon facts that I, as a child, had no power to control.

One might then ask, What defines the child’s truth?  Or, do we each define our own truth in choosing how we live our lives?

As an adult, what mattered the most to me became: I define my own truth in choosing how I live my life.

The truth of who I am is not determined by who gave me birth; I determine my own choices in life. I have to love myself first.

I am devoted to serving you.

Here’s celebrating YOU!

My book guides you along an adoptee’s journey and nurtures love in order to help you overcome feelings of anger and betrayal.  carina-book-imageIn gratitude for having you here, you can sign up for my guide book,  3 Most Important Truths When Talking About Adoption. I encourage you to share it with others as well. >>Sign up here<<

Praise for

                                        3 Most Important Truths When Talking About Adoption 

“Carina! Thank you for sharing! I think what is most appealing about you and (for me) comes through in your writing is that you really, truly, speak from the heart. Especially from my perspective– being adopted, struggling with my own truths about my family and biological father, I know I can relate to much of your story. But even outside of that– reading your writing feels like a conversation, like I’ve known you for years– which is something I find to be one of the most important aspects of a writer. People want to feel connected and you have that grace that pulls your reader in and makes it intimate and comforting to read your story.”~ Nickcole W.

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Praise for

The Syrian Jewelry Box: A Daughter’s Journey for Truth

“Carina Burns has looked within herself, faced her demons, and developed the courage to share her journey of love, perceived betrayal, angst, and regenerative love. I first knew Carina before she learned of her adoption. She was a typical carefree teenager enjoying the ‘good life’ of a third-culture expatriate kid. Only recently have I reconnected with her. She has quite a story, a gift she shares with passion. Carina Burns is truly ‘becoming’ in every way imaginable.”~ Richard Maack, junior high school principal, Saudi Arabia

 

 

Carina’s memoir, The Syrian Jewelry Boxis a beautifully expressed story from an adopted child written in a manner which will help bring contentment and comfort to all adopted readers.”~ Anthony J. Zamarchi, Sr., Raytheon Middle East Systems

For future publication and purchasing information, please visit Carina’s website.  >>here<<

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Me (53) living in Palo Alto, CA 2013.

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